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Teen Anorexia and Body Image Living Outside The Mirror Illusion

Dreamer | Jul 06, 2009 | 0 comments

Teen anorexia and body image issues are a growing trend in our global culture. Personally, it has become an area I have spent a lot of time working with teenagers struggling with these “illusions” of their body. Life has been encapsulated within a mirror which you only see. Looking back at you, is your reflection, however it has become altered and the illusion begins to form. The longer you stare and allow your mind to focus in order to “find” imperfections you will.

Teenage Depression In Pictures: TollieSchmidt.com

Teen anorexia and body image is absolutely within your control to overcome and abolish. However, how long have you lived within the confinements of your mind and allowed this illusion to unfold? Growing up I hated mirrors, I hated having my picture taken. I was the fat kid, and I didn’t want to see myself, because it disgusted me. I withdrew into my own mind and created a dark prison. I would sarcastically or intentionally verbally tear anyone one down who I felt was out to “get me”. If that didn’t work, I’d become the bully and physically force them to stop while gaining the reputation of an out of control bully, so no one would speak negatively to my face. Was I right? I was fat, so everyone must have seen what I saw. Everyone must have been thinking what I was thinking, I mean I couldn’t have come up with all this torment on my own; in my own head, create my own hell, or did I?

That’s exactly what I did! I blamed everyone for my hurt and hate. I degraded myself, I hated myself. If this was all the thinking in my head then how in the world, could I expect anyone to treat me any different. What I focused on is exactly who I was. I was the fat kid and everyone was disgusted by me, or they were afraid of me. Why go out and try and excel, or even lose the weight? Why try to be great because everyone wanted me to fail, everyone would stop me, it wouldn’t be my fault because the whole world was against me. So, teen anorexia and body image, how different are the situations?

Tollie Schmidt Growing Up As The Fat Kid: TollieSchmidt.com

Staring into the mirror you only see fat, you only see imperfection, so keep dieting! Don’t eat a thing, because when your bones are showing Im sure the world will still see you as fat. I’m sure teen anorexia and body image has nothing to do with an illusion formed through a mirror and captured in your mind and thoughts. Because seriously if your not skinny then your worth nothing right? The only thing in life is being skinny, because skinny is what dreams are made from. Stop! Really think about that for a second, get a little pissed, now write down anything that comes into your head that you are good at. Now, seriously, let the energy flow.

I hope you wrote a lot down. Because, I do this a lot especially if I start feeling negative about myself. Teen anorexia and body image, is this the reason a boyfriend or girlfriend dumped you? Did it suck? Yeah it sucks, but was it because your too fat? I seriously doubt it. I’ve been dumped a couple times heck I’ve been engaged twice and it didn’t work out. I have been called every negative thing in the book of insults. Yes, I have also “allowed” it to affect who I am. This right here is the key, this is the start to making a powerful life and kicking yourself in the ass while creating your reality infused by your dreams. You allowed those words to impact you!

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Today, my life is truly what I dreamed, actually enhanced by 150%! However, daily I must remain in a constant positive energy flow and not allow any negativity to influence my mood and decisions. Teen anorexia and body image are the same. Projects I am in the process of producing and creating are a far cry from where I ever thought I would be a couple years ago. They are also a little uncomfortable for some people, however I fully visualize the amazing outcome. Artistic, and eccentric are truly a quality I now feel blessed to have. I am built much stronger now, I allow myself to completely put myself out there when it comes to helping people. Because, I know I can’t always be perfect and I accept I will take my criticism and public “shots” from critics. How does this affect me today?

I could slip back into the illusion of the fat kid, or like teen anorexia and body image I can blame it all on my body, or being to fat. Or I can take a stand look straight through the illusion and smash the mirror and feel the truth. These words, these thoughts and feelings are coming from those who will always fear greatness. They will always fear taking the chance or the risk. They appreciate adventure but could never allow the journey and live life as it truly is an amazing and passion filled adventure filled with anything you dream of. Teen anorexia and body image will stop you from this amazing life and feeling if you “allow” your negative mirror infatuated “illusion” to consume your passion for life and love!

Tollie Schmidt During A Promotional Video Shoot: TollieSchmidt.com

No one has to understand why I do what I do. No one has to accept who I am or what I do. They can try and feel better by attaching negative names or titles to describe me in order to feel better about themselves, however I will not “allow” those words to affect me. Have you ever noticed when things aren’t right in someones life they usually sit and try to figure out who it is to blame for it? Teen anorexia and body image is the same way. Today you can sit there keep staring in the mirror and allow your illusion to grow larger or smash the mirror and live life! I’d rather live the adventure and have passion for every moment of every day, and be called fat, then be skinny and miserable. I’d rather travel and experience all the wonders of the world and hear I have no values or I’m disgusting then try and please everyone else and have to lie to myself daily and say I’m happy. I would rather take all my talents and create a life where I wake up full of passion and I create every moment as an artist creates their masterpiece.

Teen anorexia and body image, how much control are you “allowing” your minds illusion to have on you? Are you trying to please everyone and in the process slipping into a worse situation? Here is some perspective, in case you say, it’s just to painful, or I don’t understand. Remember I weighed over 500 pounds, I understand the feeling of being fat. I have been engaged twice both ended rather badly, and I heard every negative thing in the book. Every part of my physical body was ridiculed, my values, my finances, my family, my crazy dreams. The illusion started to lock me into another self inflicted prison of hell. I Smashed the mirror, the world NEVER saw me as these things. In fact, most everyone sees me as complete opposite. Every crazy dream I had I’m actually living and creating daily. Every dream they had, well… once again they will find someone to blame for that!

Creating A Feeling Dancing In A Field..."And They Danced" TollieSchmidt.com

Honestly, if you can truly gain a new perspective you will see how absurd “allowing” these illusions have on you. Write down who you truly are! Be proud of the small things, because trust me they may start small but they can become giants! I never imagined having a small talent of public speaking and acting many years ago would propel my life to the dreams I live in today. I never thought taking a few pictures and following little photo-shop tutorials months ago would become a passion and art style for me and people will offer me money to create for them. I never thought writing a couple songs and poetry would propel me into music and writing as they are today. Now, when I was compared to past boyfriends and told I wasn’t good enough because I wasn’t as creative as one past boyfriend. Then told, I didn’t have the money as the second and they want someone who is a mix of those two people I could have gave them merit. I also, could have felt I wasn’t a good enough man because an ex was seeing someone else for months. Huh, the “illusion” was any of this because all I saw was a fat kid? Did all the bad things you keep re-living in your mind all revolve around your weight and body?

Teen anorexia and body image is an “illusion” created through the lies of a mirror which has become your world! Smash that mirror and embrace passion and embrace adventure, feel true love and be who you truly are! Be great, be a dreamer.

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